Having a head injury and surviving is not what it’s cracked up to be, life is fraught with misfortune and difficulty for many of us. I must say that I am one of the lucky few that were able to get back to my life. I know many who struggle longer and harder than I ever did or will. So I am grateful!
That being able to not just express myself but talk and write about who I am and what I have gone through is helpful to me. I hope others can benefit. So I want to give back to those who need a lift, for those who have no voice of their own.
That being a victim of a violent crime is one of the hardest things in my life to overcome because I still cannot say I that I can forgive and in fact I wish he did not exist. But Justice is being served he is in Jail and has been. He deserves to pay for what he did to me. So justice can work.
I have learned that many who have seizure disorders have multiple complications from medications and from the seizures themselves. This I can relate to; I have had too many bad falls and I empathize with individuals who seize. It is a horrible feeling of being so out of control. This, in and of itself will make someone want to have more control in their life. I have come to realize that being in control is not the goal, being good to yourself is. We must like who we are and understand our importance before we can heal. This is a goal I will probably revisit all of my life, now and again.
Accepting that I am imperfect and even more so than others, was very difficult. But then I met people who could not make their own choices, walk, talk, own a home, ride a bike, and I realized that I was so very fortunate. But also that I needed to find ways to learn from everyone I have met. Even though I never wanted to have a faulty body and that’s how I felt for a long time, I am imperfect. However; I know that I am unique and that has made living all the more important! I also learned that you don’t have to be able to do any of the things I mentioned above to be a unique individual.
I am happy! I am someone who has an acquired brain injury and was the victim of a violent crime and I can walk tall and I can just walk.
Thank you to all that I have met in my life who have taught me that I am good enough and unique and fortunate and just me! I have learned that that is the only thing that matters is that I am just who I am no matter how I got here; it is a journey that was well worth walking, running, biking, and driving through! Headed for the next junction of this ride.